I just want to get to Friday which is payday which means I can buy my plane tickets and register for the conference and take a freaking break from "settling in" for a few days. I'm really glad I'm here. I'm excessively thankful for having the eyes to see all these opportunities in front of me and for being surrounded by incredible people all the time. But, sometimes, I just want everything to shut up shut up shut up so I can tell you that I don't care, that it doesn't matter, that this isn't the point! I feel like I'm forgetting to breathe. It will be nice to be in an airplane going to see literally nobody that I know and just be able to do a lot of listening and maybe a lot of sleeping and talk about Henry and Anais. I feel like I'm in high school again, just misunderstood and really uncomfortable and unknowable and unable to tell anybody that that is where I'm at right now.

Step outside of your perspective for one moment and feel what the people around you are experiencing. Blood pulses through our veins in different rhythms. I put my hands up and try to see if I can forget myself for a moment and accept what is in the air. Do you hear it? They're trying to tell you everything they don't know in words.