Walking and talking and learning how to forgive just by engaging in a matching feeling, twins sharing nostrils and breakfast. It's not that you needed this from me, but just something I needed, to remember the closeness just because - not for having things in common or things to talk about but just the good feeling of another person existing. I don't know how to explain what I've been going through but I worry it's something like regression. I just hope something in God is willing to work with me on this lack of green fields and moments of silence. I'm working on it. 

But in the mean time, I'm grateful for living this big life, in case it ends up being a short one.

Patience.