I spent the last 3 days with Kristyn, and the immense and divine joy this brought me I can in no way begin to articulate. All I can say is that I love her. And that there's something she does for me that no other person really has... Kristyn just lets me be. She always invites but never pushes me, just kinda lets me do my thing. She questions me a lot and asks me questions that I know I should consider, but Kristyn's never told me not to do something. I think I've always needed this anchor, this stability, this comfort. If the rest of my life is continuously chaotic and insane, there has always been a certainty in our love that I am grateful for. I felt like because it was not sunny, I kind of couldn't show her all of the things I love here, and some of the things I love didn't look as beautiful. But really the experience I loved most during her visit was laying in the guest bed of Claudia's house just talking with her before falling asleep.

The truth is, I came here to write something pretty emo, express some serious negativity I've been feeling the last few days. But I remember that moment and dancing in the rain with her and I feel a completeness that reminds me how boring sadness is, how much it isn't what I want to focus on. There's something fantastic about how quickly a few good vibes can erase an entire mood.

Maybe I'll be emo later. For now, I'll take that you just want to be alone as a sign that I need to be. And I'll remember what it was like to feel cold feet on colder cement. And I'll be okay with that.

And then there's this cat painting...