Life's too short to even care at all..

The truth is, well. I don't know what the truth is. All I know is that I need to stop apologizing so much for doing what I want- stop apologizing for doing the right thing, saying the right thing, trying new things, or following my heart. I need to stop apologizing for being considerate or for being selfish or for being too critical. I've spent my whole life apologizing for being who I am, even though I don't actually in my heart of hearts care if anybody understands who that is.

My body folded open against the wall and the heater, sprawled out pathetically because I knew what I was about to know, I was out of everything. I'm not in this anymore. With too much food in my stomach and nothing left in my heart, all I could give you were tears. There is so sadness. I just can't fall apart with you anymore. I need to do it on my own.