I'm packing up this room... what feels like at least the tenth time I've done this in two years. Truthfully, that's no exaggeration, but I don't want to think about how many times I've left a room behind... all the rooms... my campus quad room, home room, spain room, germany room, sun room, regular cunningham room, my home room again, and again, and again. As much as I feel like it's such the drag to be running up and down the staircases from room to car, I feel impressed with the amount of stuff I've resisted accumulating in the 5 months I've lived here. I can see myself progressing, growing up, growing into someone who needs less... I just hope I have not stopped giving. Idk... It feels GREAT to be finally harnessing this position, really feeling it and knowing I'm going to do well. It's hard, too, though, because as much as all I want to focus on is positive, I am finding myself stumbling upon various negative energies just like my brakes breaking and the tifts with those I hold dear and the awkward conversations and just the fumbling mess that is my life in motion. But I have to embrace all the goodness, the Godness, and myself.
I have been having hard days but I feel that I am done focusing on that for now. I want to just embrace positivity and opportunity, the sunshine, the bubbles, all those very Kate Alice things. I know this is something I can do, or it wouldn't have been offered to me and my path. Taking the hard moments and knowing I am bigger and more prepared because of them. Going to have such the blast with my newbie sidekick and going to love the life that is happening within and without me. Make a list of what you love and make sure you're on it.
